I'm tired, man. I'm tired of this constant struggle between my heart and my brain. My heart tries to pull me to the left, but my brain somehow finds a way to pull me right.
After numerous conversations with friends I'm left with the conclusion that no matter how much advice I take, the only one who can determine the outcome is me. But that just leads me back to the whole "heart vs. brain" struggle. I just need to figure out which ME I'm going to listen to.
You're probably like "what the hell is Eeb talking about?!" haha It's all good. I'm just talking to myself right now, hoping that maybe I'll come to an answer by the time I finish typing this blog.
My homeboy said something the other day that really stuck with me. It was something to the effect of "...it's the whole responsibility of actually being GOOD". We all have our insecurities, it's a matter overcoming them that I find the most challenging. I just need to remind myself of why I got into this whole thing in the first place. Should I aim to please or should I just aim?
I DO believe in myself, but I only wish I could see what others see in me. This is where my struggle begins and ends.
Still searching for an answer.